About Jan 2009 cont. and Feb 2009

So my vacation is over and so are my hopes for this month.

We're trying something new again this cycle. When I call to schedule my baseline u/s the nurse at the dr's office tells me to start the pill.

We're doing a simulated IVF cycle this month. The dr mentioned this would be the next step but we didn't really talk much about it. Has anyone heard of this? I googled it and I couldn't find anything on it. Unbelievable. I didn't think there was a topic that you couldn't find on google. Well I did it. So I don't have anyone else's experience of the simulated IVF cycle.

I'm on the pill for CD 2-22. Basically using all the pills until I get to the sugar pills. No need to take those. On CD 16 I start Lupron. This basically puts my ovaries at rest, shuts down your system, so you're starting from ground zero. At this point I'm, just doing what I'm told. I just want to be preg. If she told me to stand on head and spin I think I'd do it. Joe is starting to get nervous about all the drugs. He wants to talk about taking a break from ART and try on our own. He says, since the endo surgery, we haven't really tried on our own. I see his point, really I do, but I can't stop myself. This situation is so out of my control, and I am a control freak, but at least doing these drugs and going to these appts makes me feel like I'm doing something to help the situation. I can't just sit back and let things happen. Not at this point. We've already wasted so much time. I'm not saying the last 2 years of our life was a waste by any stretch of the imagination, because I do feel very fortunate for the life we have, I just want a baby to be part of that life.

CD 24 I get my period, right on schedule. I go in for a baseline u/s and bloodwork.
I get the ok to start the Menopur the next day. My dr calls me on Sats to give me these results. They really are great there!
So I decrease the amount of Lupron, but still continue to take it. Now I have to do two shots! This cycle I'm up to 4 amps of the Menopur.
CD 6: Blood work
CD 8: Bloodwork E=1019 (which I'm told is good), u/s right ovary 5 follicles. All about the same size. Left ovary 7 follicles. All about the same size. They are all about 13 mm. This is good! Very very good!
CD 10: u/s right ovary 4 follicles, 2 @ 14 mm and 2 @ 16mm. Left ovary, 7 follicles. All 14-16 mm. Dr H says this looks great and she couldn't have asked for a better result. If we do move to IVF, we can do the same thing and we should have a great retrieval. She's thinking, HCG monday and iui tues or wed.
CD 12: Bloodwork E=3015 (right where it should be) u/s right ovary, 2 @ 20 mm, 2 @ 19 mm. Left ovary, 2 @ 16, 2 @ 17, 1 @ 18, 3 @ 19. She kept going on about how great this looked. She told me this picture should go in a text book. I said Dr H, I hope this works, you're really getting my hopes up. Got the HCG shot, and times for tomorrow's drop off and IUI.

CD 13: Joe's turn! I try to read him the instruction once again. He ignores me. Drop off was at 8 am. I had the IUI at 11:45. 10 million sperm.

So, if 11 follicles and 10 million sperm can't make 1 baby, then??????????????????????????